POETRY: Captive

Had it been I
Would have gone too far
Bending all the rules
Crossing the seven seas
Hiding you in the arms.

I, a captive of yours
forever remained inside
while pumped happily
this heart of yours
with blood of mine
dreams that rested beneath
scared, between the bones
shivered endlessly, afraid.
do you see the stains I carry
yes, the ones you gave
no, you didn’t hold me
you pushed me and watched me fall
satisfied,  ferocious laugh
yes I heard you laughing as I fell
oh how beautiful it appealed to me before
then it was quite
something hit me hard
figure I saw was blurred
was it you?
may be regretting  or confirming
you looked beautiful still.

life fell out of me
scattered, wounded, worthless
still breathing, sudden blur
and I blacked out
there was no me left, just you.